Slm..

Ak rasa x slh kalo ak ucapkan skali lg..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA !!!

*clap clap clap.haha..

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Tp an..

sbnrnye sejak kebelakangan ni,

ak rse mood ak x menentu ar..

Time nk dkt2 hari raya ni la ak rse mcm tu,

rse mcm ni..

Rasa x sedap hati bnyk..

Xtaw sbb apa..

Ak mmg enjoy raya..

Mmg seronok berpuasa..

Tp tula..

Kalo korg tnye ak,

ak mengaku ar yg ni bukanla Raya yg paling bez ak pnh dpt..

Sbb hati ak x tenteram..

Xtaw sbb pe tp ada je yg x kne..

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Ak selalu terasa menyesal ..

Time2 nk exam, time2 ak tgh stress, xpun time2 ak tgh duk sorg2 an,

nnt bnde2 ni terlintas balik kat dlm kepala..

"Kalo la dulu ak buat cmni, apa jdik agknye eh?"

Kalo la dlu ak x buat tu, skrg mcmne eh?"

Slalu terpkir bnde2 cmtu..

Mmg la org kata jgn igt bnde2 yg dh lepas..

Tp bnde ni,

ak xley nk lupakan..

Ak xtaw knpe ar..

Sntiasa menghantui ak..

Ya Allah...

Tolong la hambaMu ini melupakan kisah2 silam yang menggangu hidupku Ya Allah..

T_T

Kalo bnde2 yg ak igt tu gmbira, xpa la jgk..

Ni kebanyakkannye sume sdey2..

Nnt ak rse bodoh..

Knpe la ak pg igtkn diri ak dgn bnde2 sdey an..

Pastu nnt ak jd x tenteram,

n moody..

Nmpk sume bnde x kene..

I think I need someone to share this with..

But WHO???

thats the biggest question that I had never found the answer after all this time... =(

Then suddenly, Allah helped me to find YOU..

And I thought YOU were the one,

the fact that uve been my best bud for about 5 years now,

I told YOU every single little tiny thing that could possibly pass through my mind..

I thought it would help me let the burden go..

But no..

Jealousy stopped everything from coming together..

Everything we built, was destroyed by just a little tiny drop of jealousy..

A friend of mine once told me ;

Thx friend.. =)

Tp tula,

its not as easy as it sounds..

to forget the past..

to forget a mistake that ur not able to share with any other person but just urself..

Astaghfirullah..

the agony..

Ya Allah..

Tolongla aku.. T_T

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I seriously dont expect anyone to understand this post..

This is just me tryin to let loose a bit of my own burden..

Cmon,

u know that no one else could help us,

so why dont we help each other,

like we used to..

=|

Let bygones be bygones..

Forget the past..

Forgive each other..

Let it go..

N come start a new one..

yup,

u know im talking to u...

**Dont know whether ull read this post or not, but if u do, just give it a thought.. =)